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Biografía de Henry James en Wikipedia
|The friends of the friends|
He broke it by presently saying: "There's absolutely no doubt of her death?"
"Unfortunately no. I've just risen from my knees by the bed where they've laid her out."
He fixed his eyes hard on the floor; then he raised them to mine. "How does she look?"
"She looks - at peace."
He turned away again while I watched him; but after a moment he began: "At what hour then - ?"
"It must have been near midnight. She dropped as she reached her house - from an affection of the heart which she knew herself and her physician knew her to have, but of which, patiently, bravely, she had never spoken to me."
He listened intently and for a minute was unable to speak. At last he broke out with an accent of which the almost boyish confidence, the really sublime simplicity, rings in my ears as I write: "Wasn't she wonderful!" Even at the time I was able to do it justice enough to answer that I had always told him so; but the next minute, as if after speaking he had caught a glimpse of what he might have made me feel, he went on quickly: "You can easily understand that if she didn't get home before midnight -"
I instantly took him up. "There was plenty of time for you to have seen her? How so," I asked, "when you didn't leave my house until late? I don't remember the very moment - I was preoccupied. But you know that though you said you had lots to do you sat for some time after dinner. She, on her side, was all the evening at the 'Gentlewoman,' I've just come from there - I've ascertained. She had tea there; she remained a long long time."
"What was she doing there all that long long time?"
I saw him eager to challenge at every step my account of the matter; and the more he showed this the more I was moved to emphasise that version, to prefer with apparent perversity an explanation which only deepened the marvel and the mystery, but which, of the two prodigies it had to choose from, my reviving jealousy found easiest to accept. He stood there pleading with a candour that now seems to me beautiful for the privilege of having in spite of supreme defeat known the living woman; while I, with a passion I wonder at today, though it still smoulders in a manner in its ashes, could only reply that, through a strange gift shared by her with his mother and on her own side equally hereditary, the miracle of his youth had been renewed for him, the miracle of hers for her. She had been to him - yes, and by an impulse as charming as he liked; but oh she hadn't been in the body! It was a simple question of evidence. I had had, I maintained, a definite statement of what she had done - most of the time - at the little club. The place was almost empty, but the servants had noticed her. She had sat motionless in a deep chair by the drawing-room fire; she had leaned back her head, she had closed her eyes, she had seemed softly to sleep.
"I see. But till what o'clock?"
"There," I was obliged to answer, "the servants fail me a little. The portress in particular is unfortunately a fool, even though she too is supposed to be a Gentlewoman. She was evidently at that period of time, without a substitute and against regulations, absent for some little time from the cage in which it's her business to watch the comings and goings. She's muddled, she palpably prevaricates; so I can't positively, from her observation, give you an hour. But it was remarked toward half-past ten that our poor friend was no longer in the club."
It suited him down to the ground. "She came straight here, and from here she went straight to the train."
"She couldn't have run it so close," I declared. "That was a thing she particularly never did."
"There was no need of running it close, my dear - she had plenty of time. Your memory's at fault about my having left you late: I left you, as it happens, unusually early. I'm sorry my stay with you seemed long, for I was back here by ten."
"To put yourself into your slippers," I retorted, "and fall asleep in your chair. You slept till morning - you saw her in a dream!" He looked at me in silence and with sombre eyes - eyes that showed me he had some irritation to repress. Presently I went on: "You had a visit, at an extraordinary hour, from a lady - soit; nothing in the world's more probable. But there are ladies and ladies. How in the name of goodness, if she was unannounced and dumb and you had into the bargain never seen the least portrait of her - how could you identify the person we're speaking of?"
"Haven't I to absolute satiety heard her described? I'll describe her for you in every particular."
"Don't !" I cried with a promptness that made him laugh once more. I coloured at this, but I continued: "Did your servant introduce her?"
"He wasn't there - he's always away when he's wanted. One of the features of this big house is that from the street-door the different floors are accessible practically without challenge. My servant makes love to a young person employed in the rooms above these, and he had a long bout of it last evening. When he's out on that job he leaves my outer door, on the staircase, so much ajar as to enable him to slip back without a sound. The door only requires a little push. She pushed it - that simply took a little courage."
"A little? It took tons! And it took all sorts of impossible calculations."
"Well, she had them - she made them. Mind you, I don't deny for a moment," he added, "that it was very very wonderful."
Something in his tone kept me a time from trusting myself to speak. At last I said: "How did she come to know where you live?"
"By remembering the address on the little label the shop-people happily left sticking to the frame I had had made for my photograph."
"And how was she dressed?"
"In mourning, my own dear. No great depths of crape, but simple and scrupulous black. She had in her bonnet three small black feathers. She carried a little muff of astrachan. She has near the left eye," he continued, "a tiny vertical scar - "
I stopped him short. "The mark of a caress from her husband." Then I added: "How close you must have been to her!" He made no answer to this, and I thought he blushed, observing which I broke off. "Well, good-bye."
"You won't stay a little?" He came to me again tenderly, and this time I suffered him. "Her visit had its beauty," he murmured as he held me, "but yours has a greater one."
I let him kiss me, but I remembered, as I had remembered the day before, that the last kiss she had given, as I supposed, in this world had been for the lips he touched. "I'm life, you see," I answered. "What you saw last night was death."
"It was life - it was life!"
He spoke with a soft stubborness - I disengaged myself. We stood looking at each other hard. "You describe the scene - so far as you describe it at all - in terms that are incomprehensible. She was in the room before you knew it?"
"I looked up from my letter-writing - at that table under the lamp I had been wholly absorbed in it - and she stood before me."
"Then what did you do?"
"I sprang up with an ejaculation, and she, with a smile, laid her finger, ever so warningly, yet with a delicate dignity, to her lips. I knew it meant silence, but the strange thing was that it seemed immediately to explain and justify her. We at any rate stood for a time that, as I told you, I can't calculate, face to face. It was just as you and I stand now."
He shook an impatient head. "Ah! we're not staring!"
"Yes, but we're talking."
Well, we were - after a fashion." He lost himself in the memory of it. "It was as friendly as this." I had on my tongue's end to ask if that was saying much for it, but I made the point instead that what they had evidently done was gaze in mutual admiration. Then I asked if recognition of her had been immediate. "Not quite," he replied, "for of course I didn't expect her; but it came to me long before she went who she was - who she could only be."
I thought a little. "And how did she at last go?"
"Just as she arrived. The door was open behind her and she passed out."
"Was she rapid - slow?"
"Rather quick. But looking behind her," he smiled to add, "I let her go, for I perfectly knew I was to take it as she wished."
I was conscious of exhaling a long vague sigh. "Well, you must take it now as I wish - you must let me go."
At this he drew near me again, detaining and persuading me, declaring with all due gallantry that I was a very different matter. I'd have given anything to have been able to ask him if he had touched her, but the words refused to form themselves: I knew to the last tenth of a tone how horrid and vulgar they'd sound. I said something else - I forget exactly what; it was feebly tortuous and intended, meanly enough, to make him tell me without my putting the question. But he didn't tell me; he only repeated, as from a glimpse of the propriety of soothing and consoling me, the sense of his declaration of some minutes before - the assurance that she was indeed exquisite, as I had always insisted, but that I was his "real" friend and his very own for ever. This led me to reassert, in the spirit of my previous rejoinder, that I had at least the merit of being alive; which in turn drew from him again the flash of contradiction I dreaded. "Oh she was alive! She was, she was!"
"She was dead, she was dead!" I asservated with an energy, a determination it should be so, which comes back to me now as almost grotesque. But the sound of the word as it rang out filled me suddenly with horror, and all the natural emotion the meaning of it might have evoked in other conditions gathered and broke in a flood. It rolled over me that here was a great affection quenched and how much I had loved and trusted her. I had a vision at the same time of the lonely beauty of her end. "She's gone - she's lost to us for ever!" I burst into sobs.
"That's exactly how I feel," he exclaimed, speaking with extreme kindness and pressing me to him for comfort. "She's gone; she's lost to us for ever; so what does it matter now?" He bent over me, and when his face had touched mine I scarcely knew if it were wet with my tears or his own.
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